We were married 2 years ago today in Endicott, New York, surrounded by our closest friends and family that we love. Our wedding was designed to be a worship service where the focus would be placed onto the ONE who had brought us together just a year earlier.
I would love to say that every day since that day has been blissful. It has, in fact, been very hard on some days. There have been days that both of us have wanted to forever walk away from each other. Neither of us realized how selfish we were until we were living so closely with another person. All my life I dreamed of being a good wife and mom, and I didn't understand why it was so hard to do just that. I didn't understand why it was so hard to care for and love David the way he needed and deserved. And the problem was, there wasn't a lot of places we could go to talk about how hard things were. We wanted to talk to someone, we just didn't know where to go for help. We felt like there was something wrong with us, but then God brought people into our lives who had been where we were. Our community group at Redeemer Church (the Lind's, the Leadbetter's, and the Blackston's) walked with us every week as did David's cousin and her husband. They helped us to understand that what we were experiencing was something they had experienced and God had brought their marriage beyond that to a place that reflected more what God designed marriage to be. I need people to be real with me, and when things were really rough, those couples were honest with us and gave us glimpses of hope. We couldn't have done it without their support.
Thankfully, when we made our vows to each other, we also made them to God. And on days (cause we still have them) when things are tough and it's hard to keep the commitment to each other, we remember that we have made a promise to our God. And when we take our eyes off of ourselves and focus our gaze onto Him, He gives us the strength to love as He has loved us. We have more good days now than bad days. I can say that I love David more today than I did last year. I am thankful to be married to him and feel blessed to have him as my life partner. Please pray that God will help us to love each other and to use our marriage to bring Him glory.
Moving across the country recently has added some stress to our lives. But we both agree that the change was something we both needed. We are now looking for a church where we can worship and be involved in a small group where we can grow like we did in Knoxville. If you think of it, please pray that God will show us where He wants us to go. We have been visiting churches every Sunday and have found a couple that we like a lot.
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Dad and I pray for you every day. We can see such growth in your lives. We wish we could make everything perfect for you, but we are not perfect ourselves, and we struggle everyday too. The rough times make us stronger, Keep a journal of your days. I wish I had written things down over these years. we love you so much.
Joy, this is a beautiful post. Gary and I have gone thru those same things that you are went thru. I kept wondering what was wrong with me, because I always thought being married would be SO perfect. There are many perfect things about our marriage, but ther is lots of imperfection things too. I am glad you have grown together. You have a beautiful family! I am praying for you as you get this new home and make all of the adjustments to living in a new location! Much love! Becky
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